Wednesday, April 6, 2011

How many?

How many hateful moments can ruin a lifetime love?
My biggest fear is that it happens before I know it. Before I know it I be searching for the lost love for you, you who I love more than anything in this world.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

You are here!

You were born on Jan 5th by c-section. I need to write down your birth story. I need to write more often both when I am sad and when not! Today you turned three months old. We had a horrible night. I had a horrible night. Hopefully you did not.

All that matters is that I am a mommy now! A lot has changed and yet many things are the same. I need to change, I think. I need to adapt and do what is best for you my little future, Aryanna Yalda Joy!


Happy three months old baby girl. You will have a better life. And thankfully you won't remember all that happened tonight.