Friday, February 17, 2012

It is OK

It is OK to be mad. It is OK to be sad. These all are part of it.
The darn thing is back, or rather it has always been there, it is grown big enough to be back in my life.
I have to have a surgery again. It is not even 10 years.
I can't stop thinking about  the "what if"s.
Having Aryanna has made me much more scared for my life. Last time, I wasn't really that scared of the surgery itself. This time I am, very much!
I know I will get over myself and I will deal with it. For now, I am ok. I am reasonable, optimistic one minute and crying, mad, very mad and not all that strong another minute.

It is a process,  I will get there. I just think, it is ok to be mad. I can't be mad at myself for being angry. It is OK to be angry. It is OK.

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